For so much of the year I was laid up with an inexplicable knee injury, followed by a cancer scare. I suffered choking anxiety and severe depression. It seemed like nothing was happening. Certainly nothing good.
Tag: faith
The Couch in the Jordan River
The couch in the Jordan River took me by surprise. No, it was worse than that; I felt insulted. From … More
The Starlight in My Soul’s Dark Night
Dark nights happen to some and not others, and only God knows why. St. John of the Cross called it a holy experience. Tell that to my priest, I wanted to say. Tell it to my husband, who still mourns the “nice Christian girl” he thought he married.
The Church Inside Myself (That I Didn’t Know Was There)
Meditation is one of those things that has always been for other people. Patchouli-toothpaste white people with rustic-but-pricey cedar furniture and mandala wall hangings. People who “study” Japanese cooking. People with gurus and lots of time on their hands.
Finding God on the Courthouse Lawn
Before I even learned what had happened in Orlando, I learned about the candlelight vigil that would be held on … More
Our Name is Legion: Or, Sympathy for the Devil
It’s natural—perhaps even biologically sound—to shun the afflicted. In this way, we’re no different than other animals who practice this … More
Confessions of a Mystic Manqué
I’ve always wanted to be a mystic. Not of the crystal ball variety, but like Teresa of Ávila, or even … More
Why Go To Church?
Last Friday, I went back to the Orthodox Church I’d all but stopped attending. I’m sort of obsessed with the … More
It All Started With Marie Kondo
Unless you’ve been living in a cave, you’ve heard of her. Her book, The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up is … More
Christmas Reflections
I’ve had a hard time getting into Christmas this year. The whole routine seems like the same thing over and … More